one of those days…

It’s sort of been one of those days/weeks/months…I feel disengaged, just going through the motions, going through daily life just with the goal of getting through the day. Nothing has been wrong…just off.  Work has been crazy, life has been crazy, the cats have been crazy…Brandon and I have both been working late, which is always draining.  Our eating schedule (and content) gets messed up, and we have less time/energy for each other.

Friends are getting married, friends and family are moving, friends are having babies, life is changing–all for the better, I truly believe, but change nonetheless.  And change is tiring, exhausting even at times. Times of change like this in lives all around me remind me of the changes I wish to make in my own life.

This blog has been a very positive outlet for me to post my comings and goings and share my everyday life with the world, but sometimes I take pause and realize how superficial it can be–superficial in the kind sense of the word.  I don’t mean shallow, just very “surface.”  It’s typically not as much about what is going on inside, but more a log of what I’m doing.  Today I’m taking a moment to pause and just put it out there.  I had a conversation with a friend last week and we had a good conversation about life/work/jobs, etc.  She shared how she’s sort of in the camp of “put it out there, and it will come back to you.”  Good, bad, if you put it out there, it will come back.  Throw your desires to the world, and hopefully good will come of it–after all, how can anyone offer help if they don’t know you are seeking it?

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about life/career/what I would be doing in an ideal world.  I have to say, I like my job, I’m happy at my job, but I miss art.  I miss doing, I miss making…while I enjoy the little bit I do for Etsy, I can’t dedicate enough time and resources to truly make it what I would like it to be and what I am capable of.  I guess this is my way of saying something outloud to make it more real:  I want to get serious about my creative outlets.  Take some printing classes (I’ve always had an interest, but I’ve been particularly inspired by my friend Kelly‘s beautiful artwork), and more importantly take some photography classes.  I have some amazing opportunities offered to me, and I am anxious to snatch them up and give them my all.  I have thoroughly enjoyed learning more (although the knowledge I have yet to gain is pretty daunting) about cameras and photography, and I am anxious to improve upon my craft.  I don’t know if anything will come of it, but that’s not the point to me–I just want to get better at doing something that it turns out I absolutely love doing.

On this Bastille Day, which always makes me a little nostaglic, I am throwing the word out there–bring on the creative endeavors!  Here’s to learning and exploring creative outlets.

For anyone still reading, thank you…as always, I appreciate each and every person who stops in on the blog.

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4 thoughts on “one of those days…

  1. For what it’s worth, you helped me to be more creative myself, B. I started following your blog and the “young house love” blog…and I must say the combination led to MANY creative house projects today.

    Plus…I was thinking you should photograp my wedding one day…you up for it?! 🙂

  2. I LOVE your blog- and was just telling your mom that your beautiful photos inspired me to get my first DSLR camera one week ago! When you put your energy out into the world you never know who will be affected by it! Keep exploring that creativity- it is boundless! Melinda Anderson

  3. I couldn’t agree more with, Jenn. You are SO creative, B! I was just telling my movie/book club last night in fact about your blog and that even if I didn’t know you, I would still read it. I’m continuously in awe of all your talents: the esty stuff, the knitting, the photography, the design projects, the decor projects. I wish I could have just an ounce of your talent! I feel so BLAH next to your talents!

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