One of these days…
One of these days I will write a post with substance. Perhaps one that doesn’t cheat by just having a bunch of pictures of Eleanor and calling it a day. This is not that day. I want this blog to include plenty about Eleanor, but I also don’t want it necessarily to be all about her. These days, however, it’s difficult not to write about her because well, 1. she’s so dang cute but 2. she pretty much consumes my activities 24 hours a day. We haven’t gotten her to take a bottle yet (I admit the effort has been poor at best) which means she isn’t far from me for more than a couple hours at a time.
Not that I mind–she’s proved to be quite the entertaining sidekick! I also have a backlog of non-iPhone photos to share, but they are still on my camera (along with some family portraits of my sister’s family…yes Jen, they are still on the camera…SIGH) and I just never seem to get around to downloading them.
I have to admit it’s been a little overwhelming at times, being mom full time AND working part time AND attempting to keep up with chalk + dot. I still dream of a day when chalk + dot can be a serious money maker, but for now I have to keep the day job. These past few weeks we have gotten into a much better routine which has been great.
For a while I was getting frustrated and upset because I felt I was always half doing something–half taking care of Ellie and half trying to work at the same time, which meant neither task was getting my full attention. Of course in my sometimes-still-a-little-hormonal state I mentally spiraled down the road of how I was going to miss so much of Ellie growing up because I wasn’t able to focus on her. After I got to the end of my mental pity party (I mean, let’s be real–I am fortunate to be able to be in the situation where I can stay at home and still earn money!) I decided to institute a strict schedule where work time is work time and Ellie time is Ellie time–no trying to combine the two. I work while she naps and once she goes down at night. When she is up, the laptop goes away.
(Ellie in her Easter best. And yes, there are photos from Easter on the camera too)
So far for the most part my scheduled time has worked out quite well. Of course there are days where naps are a mess and I don’t get any work done, but then I just put in extra time in the evening or the weekend and try not to get upset or frustrated. I just have to accept that things are beyond my control and I just have to do the best that I can.
It’s amazing how quickly the time goes when your days are built around mini-cycles. Wake up. Feed. Play. Wind down. Nap. Wake up. Feed. Play. Wind down. Nap. Wake up. Feed. Play. Maybe cat nap. Bath. Feed. Bedtime for E, work time for me. That’s my schedule in a nutshell. The time seems to slow during the final cycle because Ellie gets a little crabby because she only gets a cat nap in but that means she is up for a longer period of time than normal. She enjoys the bath so that helps pass the time but as you can imagine crabby baby = slowed perception of time.
Well, I guess I ended up writing a little more substance than I had planned! Check that out–675 words and counting. My goal for this blog going forward is to yes, chronicle the goings on of our life, but also incorporate a little more reflection, share a little more of the inside me. We will see how that goes. For now, I’ll leave you to stare at the pictures of Eleanor. Go on, scroll back up to that picture of her with the polar bear and those amazingly scrumptious baby thighs. You know you want to.